A fresh start!

I’ve spent a lot of time recently reflecting on the past few years. Since 2020, I’ve experienced some exceptionally high highs followed by a barrage incredibly low lows.

To say the the most recent 4 years have been challenging would be an understatement. I’ve never suffered with mental health before and have always been proud of my mental resilience and “worry about it when its worth worrying about” philosophy, however I found myself battling my own mind and didn’t even know it was happening.

When people talk about mental health, more often than not its associated with the statement, “talk before its too late”. As a result, I’ve always considered a battle with mental health to be a literal choice between life and death. It was only watching a Tyson Fury video on Youtube back in July did I realise I was getting the shit kicked out of me and I didn’t even know it.

They Say everything happens for a reason.... I don’t particulaly like Tyson Fury so I don’t watch any of his content but on a day in the middle of July, I found myself watching one of his videos and got a serious reality check that was long overdue.

Day to day, I found myself in a “meh” kinda mood. Putting tasks off til tomorrow or starting on Monday. I found this to be applicable to every aspect of my life, showering, cleaning, laundry, work, diet, business. You name it and the can got kicked down the road, with the aged old "I'll start Monday". But Monday came and Monday went. Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months and before I knew it, months had rolled into years. Little did I realise this was a mental health battle that I knew nothing about and was being whitewashed in the process.

One of the side affects of this tumultuous periods in life was continuous weight gain. In reflection, this actually spans way beyond the difficult period I've referenced above and has been an ongoing problem for the last 10 years of my life.

But putting this period behind me and the dawn of a new year gave the perfect opportunity for a "master reset". Looking at 2026 as a much needed fresh start and wiping of the slate, I thought I would document the rebuild from absolutely rockbottom.

Why a blog?

To be honest, I'm kind of old school and the older I get. the more I prefer things from yesteryear.

I liked cars before they went electric.

I liked the internet before social media.

I liked my mortgage rate before it tripled recently.

Maybe I am living in the past a little, but there's a lot that i preferred, "back in my day".

Now I know there are countless videos on youtube all documenting the same thing, but I enjoy writing a blog and as I mentioned above, I have a particular dislike of social media.

I had s blog in the past, albeit for different reasons but really enjoyed writing.

With that in mind, I thought I'd give a raw, unfiltered, no-AI account of my experiences, highs, lows and everything inbetween.

I intend writing as me, with my northern dialect and probably with the occasional profanity. Its not to offend, it's to mirror who I am in real life.

If you've made it this far, thank you and welcome!